I blame you for my attraction to Jn. His eyes are dark like yours. 

But his mannerisms are more like A's...

... and his personality is repugnant, like with every man I start lusting over.

Mmm, A... I woke up wickedly horny one morning, thinking about him recently...

F, we could've gossiped over cute guys together. I wonder if your taste is as terrible as mine.

Do you remember my eyes? I'll always remember your eyes. They slice me in half every time I see them, even in a photo. Even from when we were real young, when I saw a picture of you for the very first time. I don't say this in a negative way. There's something beautiful and clean about your visage, but also fatal. Like the cold glint of a dagger in the dark. It makes me freeze. It makes me feel weak.

You and Jn share the same eye color, but that's where the similarities end. Jn feels human, there's warmth to him, but you...

I wonder how you look now. I looked up my old boss from ten years ago, and christ, how much his face has changed. I think you'd probably age well, or, it could be nothing like I remember. I think you'd be disappointed to see me now. You knew me when my appearance was at its peak. I should've shown it off more, and had more fun with it.

I should've done a lot of things differently.

I wish I knew back then what I know now.